At the beginning of this week, I shared in a post about how I wasn’t the least bit sad to see 2014 go, in fact it was more like I was happy to slam the door in its face! Already I’m loving 2015!
I mentioned one bummer from 2014 involved Ellen DeGeneres… well, here’s the story….
I tried and tried but couldn’t get tickets to go to a live taping of her show!
Nah… just kiddin’ that would be a lame story.
Back in the summer I was contacted and asked to audition to represent an “A List” celebrity that was coming out with a home line. We were almost done filming “Knock It Off!” and my agent encouraged me to give it a go.
I was given the details and sent in my tape.
A few weeks later I got some feedback. They were going in another direction. The feedback I got was that they really liked my tape, but my look wasn’t quite what they were looking for. Maybe the top knot, red lip, and leather jacket wasn’t my best decision, but it was a quick turn around time and it’s what I tossed on. Oh well, it’s always a bummer to get a no, but I wasn’t overly down about it.
A few weeks later we were vacationing in Newport with my family when I got a call…
They decided they wanted me to continue in the process and I had a Skype interview with the celeb’s casting team in LA in a few hours. I jumped on my phone to find a salon where I could get my hair blown out (if you don’t know, I have the world’s thickest, often unruly hair, so “beach hair” doesn’t work for an interview in my world.) I found a salon, skipped out on the beach, and rushed back to the beach house for my Skype conference.
Funny thing… since I would be repping and helping to sell home decor type products, they asked me to do a quick “sample sell” during my conference. Choose something you love they told me… Umm… I’m at a rented beach house with very sparse decor. I searched high and low and ended up with this kinda cheesy “Beach this Way” sign.
I finished the Skype conference, and felt 100% confident it didn’t go well. I guess I was in a weird place, with a weird beach sign, and it wasn’t my A game. Oh well, I headed back out to the beach with my fam and looked at the silver lining- at least I had good hair on the beach now!
Weeks went by and I didn’t hear anything. I wasn’t surprised (remember… awkward beach sign sales pitch!) Eventually, I did hear back and yup, they were going in another direction, a second time.
By this time, I had heard who the celebrity was… Ellen. My Ellen. I can say that because I love that lady and she’s my “I’ve arrived” person. You know how you can have some goals that if you achieve them, it’s like you can retire and just be fully confident you worked your tail off. Well, when I first was asked to be on Nate Berkus’ show years ago, I told my family that I wouldn’t rest until I got to do something with Ellen-because she’s awesome and loves doing good stuff for people. Finding out that I was really close to that goal and didn’t even know it, bummed me out.
It was a little early in my career plan to meet Ellen anyhow, so I decided to just keep on keeping on.
Flash forward about another month or so and yup, you guessed it, they called me again. This time I was told I was one of the few final people they were considering and I needed to meet with Ellen’s team that was flying in from LA for meetings. I was given a few details about what I was going to be doing while I was there and then it was recommended to go with my “softer style” when I was picking out wardrobe.
I put together an outfit that I wasn’t 100% confident in, I felt like it had a little bit of me, just in a more subtle way. A more vanilla way I guess. I took my nose ring out (Gasp!) and headed to NYC.
I met with the team, and felt like it went much, much better than the last time. I really am comfortable doing things in person. Skype was weird, and this was more me in my element. I felt good when it was done. Of course I second guessed a few things- somehow we ended up chatting about me owning ducks and dogs, and cats etc… Ugh! Never mention you have a small menagerie when you’re on a first date. That’s a rule! Oh well. Minus them thinking I could possibly be a hick farm girl it was great.
(Our duck Chase and Kenzie. photo via)
I headed home from NYC feeling happy to have gotten my shot, and even a tad excited to be on a tape that Ellen would get to see! (They taped the entire thing.)
Well, since this story was part of my worst year post, you can guess the ending. They “went another direction” again. This time for reals.
I felt like this. I’m not a crier, but if I was this would be me…
(Fav xmas pic ever. Kaden at age 2 or 3)
I did a good bit of second guessing. I’m usually a really confident person, but this did give me a bit of a debbie downer vibe for a few weeks. I kept wondering what I could have done differently, what I needed to work on in the future etc… I had one friend, whose opinion I really respect, ask me, “How do you know you did anything wrong. What if they really did just want something different. Just be you”
My HUGE takeaway from my Ellen saga (it felt like a saga with all the no, well yes, well no, well come back again, okay, really no) is that I need to be myself always. I worked hard to try and tweak who I was to get this gig. I wore an outfit I didn’t feel right in, took my nose ring out, and just tried to tweak the real me. Well, lesson learned and I’m happy to have learned it, because in this TV business it’s one I’ll need to remember I’m sure.
This IG post was the day I found out I didn’t get the job.
I’m sure you’re wondering who DID get the job (that is if you’re still reading and my ramblings didn’t put you to sleep). The good news is that I was beat out by someone completely legit.
Taniya Nayak from HGTV and a million shows like Designed to Sell, House Hunters, etc… is working with Ellen.
I would love to tell you I’m 100% over it, and for the most part I am. I’m not one to dwell on stuff for too long, but when I saw this selfie on IG, I might have died just a little inside! I may or may not have photoshopped my head over Taniya’s… no just kidding. That would be weird (and I lack those photoshop skills, so if you have those skills and would want to… just saying’)
I was excited to be headed to the DR with Jess for a girls only beach week right after I’d heard the news. This here beach was just what debbie downer needed. Sun, books, and my BFF.
I came home happy and recharged. I realized one of the reasons I LOVE Ellen is because of all the incredible things she does for people. I admire how she uses her platform to do good. I decided that even though my platform is more like a tiny cardboard box I stand on, that I too can just keep on focusing on doing good stuff. So, I volunteered to re-do an entire retail space for an anti-human-trafficking organization. Heck, I had free time, since I didn’t get the job, might as well do some good.
Next week I’ll be sharing more from my retail space makeover for Worthwhile Thrift & The Freedom Boutique. Can’t wait for you to see the before and afters of the stores!
So there it is guys. I didn’t get the Ellen gig. Don’t worry, she’s still my “I’ve arrived” goal!
Happy Weekend Peeps!